i am soooo tired. managing my retail of pampanggas best products and load outlet is very tiring and sort of confusing. I want to build a sari2 store here.. i am not quite sure that i'll be working "out" that easy. I realize now that i love home life, not because of tv, internet and bed but because i can still have fun with my kid and do some chores and clean clean clean. MOm WAS right. Bur ofcourse i still want to finish college. That is like my ultimate dream. I am still a bit confused, working "out" will bring me back my social life back..not like this i feel like im traped. But then staying home means i could guide Morgan through everything. I am not quite sure either about the "kita" too. it may not be enuf to keep manang around. The good thing about "out"work is that i can get a gger salary to keep manang around. plus i can help mama and i can buy the things that i want. The bad thing is with my kind of low esteem and and undergrad. i am not quite sure if i am going to have a good job. Hence the doubts. For now this ( me having this little biznes) will be my solution to money problems. I am a little "hinayang" if i leave my biznez.. you know when one day i'll be working out. One day though, i plan to work home nalang. I want a computer shop, a mini grocery, sub-dealer of loads and prepaid cards, fuit stall and a pampanggas best dealer too. Those are the dreams to make life a bit richer. To be able to send Morgan to school, to be able to have my own house, to be able to buy a car and all that shit.
New topic. About milk for Morgan. She has to lower down on breast milk, i don't think it is nourishing her that much anymore. Lactum is my first choice since it gives her 100% nutrients or whatever their ads fill my mind. Nido (although pricey) is a great choice too. Haven't tried it on Morgan but i am tried.(had that when i was a kid) So many choices and things to ponder. HAve to talk to HUsby about it. Everyone seems to think that i have to work NOW to help out my husby's family. I am a little stuburn but i have other things to worry about than them, no, i do care but i don't like to be pushed because i have to, i want to help but not pushed to help. I am still in undecided mode about work beacause i am having fun with what is going on in my biznez. No bosses to please and stuff. I like the authority. I can stay up and sleep whenever i want. But no social life. a little but not much. I am a home person, something within these four walls is something i wanna have around me. Too many things to think about. Morgan's appetite is growing BACK again, THANK GOD FOR THAT. But we need to go to our "little" grotto to keep her munching some food down. Thank you mama mary. Medicine time is war time. She hates getting medicine. So i resort to "brutal"force. Well more on force. But her little tricks make me happy. I love sleeping with her at night.(which i worry because she wakes up at night and looks for breastmilk) There are sooooo many great things now. Love my husby to death. Kid to death too. Mom and Dad are helpful and a pain(sometimes) but hey, life can be unfair. I do pray that papa will not get his 3rd attack of stroke. That will be dreadful. i am also praying that mama will have work or have a biznes too. Hope we move out of that hill soon.
So far so good. I am happy. Gotta go.
New topic. About milk for Morgan. She has to lower down on breast milk, i don't think it is nourishing her that much anymore. Lactum is my first choice since it gives her 100% nutrients or whatever their ads fill my mind. Nido (although pricey) is a great choice too. Haven't tried it on Morgan but i am tried.(had that when i was a kid) So many choices and things to ponder. HAve to talk to HUsby about it. Everyone seems to think that i have to work NOW to help out my husby's family. I am a little stuburn but i have other things to worry about than them, no, i do care but i don't like to be pushed because i have to, i want to help but not pushed to help. I am still in undecided mode about work beacause i am having fun with what is going on in my biznez. No bosses to please and stuff. I like the authority. I can stay up and sleep whenever i want. But no social life. a little but not much. I am a home person, something within these four walls is something i wanna have around me. Too many things to think about. Morgan's appetite is growing BACK again, THANK GOD FOR THAT. But we need to go to our "little" grotto to keep her munching some food down. Thank you mama mary. Medicine time is war time. She hates getting medicine. So i resort to "brutal"force. Well more on force. But her little tricks make me happy. I love sleeping with her at night.(which i worry because she wakes up at night and looks for breastmilk) There are sooooo many great things now. Love my husby to death. Kid to death too. Mom and Dad are helpful and a pain(sometimes) but hey, life can be unfair. I do pray that papa will not get his 3rd attack of stroke. That will be dreadful. i am also praying that mama will have work or have a biznes too. Hope we move out of that hill soon.
So far so good. I am happy. Gotta go.
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