Little Things..

I have been a selfish little brat for way to long..


I've been through a lot of life changing shit lately and well.. ain't no doubt about it. I really am opening to ideas i said that i won't even go to. I've met wonderful friends last December and i bet they are for keeps. Losing my job last October sucked but i think it has a purpose. I want to study again and i'm actually happy about it. 


Like a new chapter in my very open book, i look at life ever so differently now. It had some unexpected turns here and there and a lot of bruises and painful shitty things but God indeed works in mysterious ways.. no doubt about that.  


I am not a faithful girl but i do believe someone is out there looking out for losers like me. Someday, i'll be the person i dreamed about before i got pregnant. I need to have a solid future with my own little family of crazy people. I need to love my parents and siblings no matter how irritated i get when they don't understand me.  I want them to be proud of me and that is something. 


What i am very pumped about is that i want a good future not just for my kid but for the three of us (or a possible four or five of us) but nonetheless i'm on the verge of finally accepting my fate. Just as long as i can have more tattoos and more of that rock and roll life we always dreamed together.


Peace.