The Kamote Daily Servings

As i am watching now, it still seems that he is still not gone. I can feel that he is still around, probably enjoying his FINAL freedom from everything that had him tyed down. I have watched a lot of shows todAY and all of them about THE Michael Jackson. I know it has been rough for him, controversies and such that happened in his short life. Finally he can be the person he wants to be.

But who is MJ in real life?

Started out as a 5 year old singing sensation along with his brothers and they called it "Jackson5"

A few years later he started out in his solo album, but it was when he did "Thriller" that made him sky rocket to super stardom. After a few years though he started to act weireder and weirder, before anyone knew, the once black jackson became white..his once natural looking nose became pointed and started to disfigure.

Next month would be my birthday and im turning 20. It seems that a few years ago, i was single, not a parent and carefree as a bird. I wonder what life brings me in my 20s.

It is tough these days. Though i am trying to cope. I realized some things, but i will mention them discreetly. I learned that there is more to love than just loving someone, you have to get hurt and misunderstand things in order to say that it is love. I don't think any relationship will last if everything was just happy. I am contented with what i have now. It is enough for me to have someone like Dubi to love, though he is quite difficult to deal with in bad situations, i am learning that i should take a step back and not let my pride in the way. Loving someone will really peel you off with yourself and will have to suffer along the way. The fruit of love though i very sweet. That feeling that someone is there for you in every step of the way in life is really something to look forward to. I always wonder how we both would look like when we are in our golden years. Will he still be crazy doing tricks on me? Will he still hug me for no reason? Although i thought that i only loved him because i got pregnant, i bet i was wrong. For looking back, i took the chance of having someone without any love but then, the span of that 1 month suddenly blossomed to something very unexpected (and no, this is not Morgan yet), but having to go thru a bad day in life made me realize that there are things that i should not take for granted. And maybe that is God's way of saying that " I found the one you are praying for, in an unexpected way for you to know someday that everything happened for a reason.." And what can i say? It is true.. that even if God made me miss my "single" life, he made me have a future with my own family..in a way he made me sort the things out and made me more responsible in life. In his own way, he made me realize that not all bad things will do you harm but you will also learn how to be a better person along the way. I may not be the perfect one for him, nor was i the picture of the perfect woman in his life. But i will make sure that i will love him everyday and show him that i do care for him and that i always be there for him in every step of the way for the rest of our lives together.

Every now and then my mother would scream and do a bunch of out of the blue sermons, trying to be deaf.. oh how i wish i could just not feel anything when she talks. I love her but she is just a pain sometimes, a thing that i don't understand.

My friends, oh how i miss them. They used to make my life a little better. They make life a bit more exciting in a way. They are the spice in my life.

News updates in this "home" :

Mom is such an ass. NO BIG DEAL.

Dad is uber "unknown" at the moment.

As for Dubi? He is studying mechanics..for him to be able to fix his motorcycle. He is also looking forward to having his contract re-newed in a month or so.

:D

Ate Len2's schooling is the same though..still going. Though i am scared of being all alone at home. At least i have the computer to entertain me. *glee*

My plans? I am trying to wait for dubi's motor to be fixed. Once it is fixed, we go to eastwood to get my clearance as so to get my TIN. Wait for NCO Marikina to open then i'll go take my chance. If this is not my moment, then it is ok with me.

As for now, i am happy, in my own little way.

My plan..like always, is this:

*i need to go to Concentrix and get my clearance, so when i can find work, i will be able to get my proper requirements without strings attached to my butt.

* pray and hope that Arvato remains open for Xbox account, don't worry though, there is always NCO.

*confirm rumor of NCO Marquinton

As of now all i can possibly do is enjoy my "free" but quite disturbing life. I know i can get through this rough patch, i know Raymon's going to be there with me as we try to get going forward. I love that bastard. I just can't wait till i become Mrs. Angela I. Hilario.. though i may need to change a lot of papers, and that includes my id's.