Ode to the past and toast to the present

It is tough these days. Though i am trying to cope. I realized some things, but i will mention them discreetly. I learned that there is more to love than just loving someone, you have to get hurt and misunderstand things in order to say that it is love. I don't think any relationship will last if everything was just happy. I am contented with what i have now. It is enough for me to have someone like Dubi to love, though he is quite difficult to deal with in bad situations, i am learning that i should take a step back and not let my pride in the way. Loving someone will really peel you off with yourself and will have to suffer along the way. The fruit of love though i very sweet. That feeling that someone is there for you in every step of the way in life is really something to look forward to. I always wonder how we both would look like when we are in our golden years. Will he still be crazy doing tricks on me? Will he still hug me for no reason? Although i thought that i only loved him because i got pregnant, i bet i was wrong. For looking back, i took the chance of having someone without any love but then, the span of that 1 month suddenly blossomed to something very unexpected (and no, this is not Morgan yet), but having to go thru a bad day in life made me realize that there are things that i should not take for granted. And maybe that is God's way of saying that " I found the one you are praying for, in an unexpected way for you to know someday that everything happened for a reason.." And what can i say? It is true.. that even if God made me miss my "single" life, he made me have a future with my own family..in a way he made me sort the things out and made me more responsible in life. In his own way, he made me realize that not all bad things will do you harm but you will also learn how to be a better person along the way. I may not be the perfect one for him, nor was i the picture of the perfect woman in his life. But i will make sure that i will love him everyday and show him that i do care for him and that i always be there for him in every step of the way for the rest of our lives together.