I hold the lock and you hold the key..

                                            Call me selfish and pushy.. but I love you.

It has been days, long dead days since the last time i saw you. I miss those eyes that make me weak everytime. Where are you now? Are you ok? Do you even miss me? Do you still care?

I'm a mess.. without you i'm worse. Life was a little better when you were around. Someone constantly keeps reminding me to have that faith for my happiness and that hope the confusion this brings comes to a good realization. Did that even happen? We haven't started yet, and there they tried tearing us apart. I thought, maybe he's just not ready for another big jump. Then i said to myself, I took mine long ago when I wanted happiness..what is the difference?  You said that a big part of me is needed because it'll only kill a little of yours. What saddens me is that you didn't even stayed close and hold me tight when all those crappy things happened to me. I felt your distance, oh how painful it was. Those last weeks broke my heart to pieces, a few days before, you were ever so loving and sweet and then in an instant,the cold spell happened. My heart died along with it. Seriously. It gave me blank spells through-out and made me did water works. Oh, i could have built Water World in my eyes. The worse part of it all is that you found someone less more stressful and threw me out like i was some log-sheet you used. My pillows were wet most of the time, my blankets too. My eyes were a total puff and i can't even break a smile for the funniest show in the world.

                       Extreme sadness those weeks were.. i even wondered how i managed.

Seeing you after that heartbreaking goodbye, killed the happiness you in me. Whenever i turn my head, i would see a constant reminder.. which is you. I'd anticipate for your texts.. i miss your IMU's and your U2s..

I miss every part of what's you..your smiles.. kisses.. hugs and spontaneous acts of love.
I am willing to stay a little longer.. should i really?
Will i wait?
Wait.. endlessly in vain for your love..